March 13, 2014

Every morning I wake up feeling like shit.

And I’m getting tired of it. (No pun intended.)

I go to sleep comfortably at a (relatively) decent hour knowing that I’m going to get up early and kick butt on doing work, and then I don’t.

Like today:

I was gunna get up at 10 and enjoy myself but still do work. I wanted to read more in my Staying Healthy with the Seasons book (ironic that I couldn’t read it because I wasn’t feeling healthy) and try to write more. I wanted to play games and/or record some. I wanted to pick back up on my homework readings and finally get caught up.

Or maybe that’s my problem. Maybe I’m coming up with too much to get done in the morning and I feel overwhelmed. That’s kind of what happened today. I was just counting down the time until I had to leave, leaving early at that, and building anxiety and not doing work.

So maybe a solid idea would be to just get one important thing I want to do in a morning lined out, and not be concerned with anything outside of doing that one thing.

That’s a tendency I often have - I have so many things I want to do and so many priorities that I can’t properly prioritize and end up getting overwhelmed in a sea of things I have to do.

Let’s try to stop that.

I guess writing in here is being helpful. I’m glad I started.

I really wish I hadn’t trashed my previous journals. Being that they were only on paper, there’s literally no way of ever getting them back. Some were shredded, some even burned, and the rest put in the trash. I didn’t hide them from myself, I didn’t just put them in a safe place, I destroyed them. And I regret it.

That’s a huge reason why I’m such a pack rat now with files. I never want to lose anything because I know that one day I will regret it.

Here’s the links about doing journal posts. That way I still have them saved, but they’re not constantly open for no reason, but not taking up bookmark slots.

http://lifehacker.com/5855019/how-to-harness-the-mental-and-emotional-benefits-of-regular-writing

http://lifehacker.com/5877106/keep-a-journal-of-awesomeness-to-boost-your-self-esteem

Dead or Alive 5: Ultimate is only $22 on Amazon right now. http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B00D9IM0B2/ref=as_li_ss_tl?ie=UTF8&camp=1789&creative=390957&creativeASIN=B00D9IM0B2&linkCode=as2&tag=greendcom-20

I have the temptation to get it. But I probably shouldn’t. But I have the feeling I’m ordering it now, anyway.

I’ve had such a strong urge to play all the games possible lately. Almost a feeling of nostalgia, but for things that I haven’t experienced before. I want to play fighters, arena brawlers, spectacle fighters, platformers, everything!!

And I want to make full video sets on all of them, which makes that even more problematic.

Off to Spanish before I’m late. Quiz day after the day I skipped, this isn’t going to be fun.