Nightmare

I woke up from a nightmare this morning. My head spinning, heart pounding its way through my ever-tightening chest, and my breathing rapid. Since then, today has just been... off.

I'm normally not affected by my dreams like this - or at all, really. That was one thing she went through that I didn't fully understand or appreciate and handle the way I should. Now I do.

Every action takes a lot of work. I have to struggle to keep my eyes focused. I only have a small amount of brainpower allocated to the here and now - and even that wants to get lost in thought. I'm not upset, scared, angry or anything like that. I'm not happy, either. I just am. I could probably waste the entire day away just sitting here. Lost in my own mind and yet not really thinking on anything specific at all.

I can't do that. I have work very soon. The idea of making myself get cleaned up, appropriately dressed, drive to work. Too much to handle. And the people! I'd have to deal with people! I'm not ready for that.

The worst part of it all is that the dream itself isn't too significant. The entire dream was pretty silly, nothing to worry about or continue thinking on - which is why my brain is lost to nothing. It wants to think, wants to sleep, but it can't.

Oh well, maybe a shower will clear things up.